Faith does not make anything hurt less.
The promise of heaven doesn't make it nearer to me.
There is strength and courage in faith,
but there is not anesthesia.
Even now, I cannot say that I am healed.
Part of my heart is no longer mine;
I gave it to Robb, and he took it with him.
I will forever feel that amputation.*
But I can say I have embraced my grief.
I have walked boldly alongside this unwanted friend,
allowing it to do its work in me.
And this has been one of the most important decisions of my life.
* Nancy Guthrie and Gregory Floyd have each written books on the grief of loss, as they have each grieved the death of children. Here, I have borrowed their words, as I can speak this sentiment with no more grace than they.